These sure Were Tough Times...

But hopefully they're gone now...

So these last few weeks have been pretty rough to say the least! At least for me, they have been. When we got the news we were losing the baby, I was given the option of having a D&C or waiting around and losing the baby on my own. I wanted to get the whole process over with and move on with my life, so I opted for the D&C. I'm wondering now if it would have been over and done with a lot quicker had I just waited and miscarried on my own. But who knows!

So the adventure began on October 30th at 6:00 in the morning. I went into the hospital and got as comfortable as possible. The anesthesialogist came in and talked with me and then they tried to put an IV in...2 nurses, the anesthesialogist, and 5 attempts later a vain was finally found!! Now, 3 weeks later, the bruises are finally gone and my hands are no longer sore! The D&C went with out fail and I went home to recover. I was pretty sore since I was quite far along (11 weeks) but it only lasted a few days.

Four days later I woke up with a 102 degree fever!! We hoped I just had a flu or something and managed it. About an hour later it broke. Then 2 days later I got another one, and then another 2 days later. From that moment on, I got a fever every day for about a week and a half! It was crazy, frustrating, and very annoying. About a week and half into it I was finally able to CONVINCE the nurse this was serious and I was allowed to see a doctor. He gave me antibiotics for an infection. They have finally started working and I have been feverless for the last 3 days now!! It got to the point that I now feel wierd feeling normal!! I was having fevers so frequently that to feel "normal" was to feel crappy, hot and cold at the same time, and dizzy! It feels good to remember what normal is supposed to feel like.

Now that I'm back to normal (I hope) we can hopefully get into a bit of routine with Michael and bring some order back into our lives. I have 11 weeks or nauseau and yuckiness and 3 weeks of miscarriage recovery to catch up on and this house sure is a good representation of how worthless I've been!

In all of this craziness, we do have some good news!! Nathan has gotten a new job!! YAY!!!!!!!!! We are so excited for this and he LOVES it. He works as a reporter for the local newspaper called the Standard Journal. He started working there the day after my miscarriage (impecable timing to start a new job, but what can you do!) and it has been such a blessing. For one thing, it's nice to know that we are now going to have an income to meet our bills and still have money for food! Hopefully no more deciding between grocery shopping and the phone bill or our credit card bill. Now we can do both!! And like I said, he loves it!

So in all this craziness, it's nice to know that a few good things came from it as well. We were also very blessed to recieve meals from those in our ward for about a week while I was dealing with the worst of the fevers and we had a lot of people stop and ask how we were. There were also a few people we called on to ask to watch Michael last minute and they never sounded as though they minded. Thank you!!!

I'm not sure that anyone can fully understand the help and support that came from people stopping me and simply acknowledging the hard time I was going through and just letting me know they cared! Thank you to everyone who left a little note on our blog. I cried with each one!! All the simple comments and uplifting words really helped me through this time. So again,

THANK YOU !!!!!!!!

from Nathan, me, and Michael