IT'S A MIRACLE!!!!!!!

So, we had our doctor appointment today and I got another ultrasound and this time, we actually saw something!!!!! I couldn't believe it! As soon as the ultrasound started I could immediately see that there was a baby and I saw a little flicker of a heart beat. We were, and still are, very amazed!!! We feel truly blessed and more encouraged to have increasing faith in our Heavenly Father.

The baby was measuring at 8 weeks and 1 day and had a heartbeat of 186 beats per minute. So everything is looking good. I figure that my due date is May 17, 2009. As I have said, we are just shocked. I think me more so than Nathan. He was the one who was having more faith, hope, and optimism this whole two weeks than I was.

When we first heard the news 2 weeks ago, I was really down. I was convinced that it was going to be a loss. I just didn't think there was any way for it to truly work out...the curse of too much knowledge (with anything baby/pregnancy related), I suppose. But as the weeks wore on and as my nausea has kept getting stronger, I was gaining more hope. I didn't want to have too much hope, just in case it didn't turn out like we wanted. I didn't want to be let down more than I needed to be. So when I saw that baby today I had just one thought in my mind: Miracle.

It was interesting to see our doctor today. Nathan and I could just see the surprise and excitement for us in his face. He walked in, handed me my little pack of preggo books, handouts, and information and said "Congratulations!" As we talked it became evident to him just how surprised we were about the progress of this pregnancy. He then told us that according to the notes he had written, he didn't believe it was going to be very successful either. I mean, he gave us a 90% chance of miscarriage!! The ultrasound technician even said that we had defied the odds! How exciting is that!!

We just feel VERY blessed to be having this baby. I feel like I have been waiting so long to finally be pregnant again and now, finally, after all this, I am!! I'm still quite nervous about the chance for miscarriage still, but I'm just going to continue having hope. It's nice to go back to the feelings we had 3 weeks ago and to just feel so confident about the success of this pregnancy and to know that everything will work out just as Heavenly Father intends it to.

Thank you also for all your support, prayers, and thoughts on our behalf. I can really feel the effects of them on my attitude and my outlook on the purpose of this trial. Thank you all soo much!! Words can not convey how truly blessed I feel and how grateful I am for this blog and for the friendships that I have been able to cultivate through it.

Thank you!!!