So, I had my first ultrasound today....We didn't learn much of anything good. They did the wonderful, invasive ultrasound only to see basically nothing. I'm supposed to be about 7 weeks or so and there was just a big, dark oval in the picture. The ultrasound tech. was very nice and very reassuring, as was the doctor. They both sounded as though they believed it was just too early. This is what we're all hoping for, but as Nathan and I consider this possibility, it doesn't seem likely.
We found out we were pregnant almost 3 weeks ago (it was on a Friday). If the theory that it's too early to see anything is accurate, that puts me at about 5, maybe 6 weeks pregnant. That sounds all fine and dandy until I consider that getting a positive result on a home preggo test at about 3, maybe 4 weeks pregnant is almost unheard of. It still happens, but rarely.
It was still nice to hear such positive remarks, as opposed to when I miscarried back in February/March when the doctor ended his optimistic remarks with a straight, "you're probably going to miscarry." This was something I did not hear at all today.
So the doctor gave us two options: We could take some blood today and then again in a few days to check the pregnancy hormone in my blood and see how much it multiplies. Or we could just wait it out for two weeks, see what happens, and come back in for another ultrasound to see if anything has grown. Nathan really wanted me to get my blood drawn, but he was also not the one getting stuck with a needle. When I considered how often my blood would have to be drawn if this did turn into a successful pregnancy, I quickly ruled out that option. So we're going back on Monday, October 6th for another ultrasound.
Meanwhile, Nathan and I are trying our darndest to be positive and optimistic. I'm praying for a revelation that will just let me know what will happen, preferably that I will have a wonderful baby in my arms by the end of May. I don't think that will happen, the revelation part I mean. I know I said this back in March, but I just thought we were done going through this mess!! Two miscarriages is enough for one family to have to go through! I'm not sure I know many, if any, people who have had to endure more than two. I also never imagined that I would have two back to back. That is probably the hardest for me. I just dealt with this 6 months ago!!!!! I'm ready for a baby. Our family is ready for a baby! We know there is one waiting for us if only my body will get it's act together and just GROW IT!!!!!!!!!
Sorry for this downer blog. I just really felt the need to write, and since this is basically my journal and our own personal family history in the making, this is where it all ends up. Here for the whole world to read!
We'll keep you updated, but if you can, please keep us in your prayers. This is a hard thing for me to ask. I feel really....uncomfortable asking for it, but I really feel that we need it. Not just for the pregnancy situation, but also Nathan's job search and other issues in our family/life. We're really going through a hard time right now and this is just compounding it all, we feel. We know this is just a trial and that it can't last forever, but until it's over, it sure is hard!!!
Anyway. I think I'm just going to post this before it gets even more mushy. Now go watch some clips of The Office or something on You Tube to forget about this depressing crud...I know that's what I'm going to do. Good night!
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14 comments:
I've been thinking about you and hoping things were going well. You will be in my prayers.
I am sorry you feel so crappy but I am not going to give up hope that all will be well. This could just be a test of your faith. Hang in there. Love you guys!
No matter what happens you'll make it through. I can tell in your writing how sweet and pure your heart is, plus I already knew that, and that makes me think of Mosiah 3:19 toward the end when it talks about being willing to submit to all things our father seeth fit to inflict upon us. You are a great example to me Amy. Whatever happens, it will be alright. I know you know that, but sometimes its good to hear it again. And I know its true! Love you to pieces! Praying for you!
Sometimes it just helps to get your frustrations out... so I'm glad you wrote this blog. It's nice to have someone (or someones) to talk to and to know that there are so many people out there who care for you and your family. We will keep you in our prayers! Good luck, keep us updated!
We're thinking of you guys. I know this must be incredibly hard for you. Hang in there and stay positive. We love you.
I think you guys are pretty amazing to be as optimistic as you are. After our miscarriage, Spencer and I can't get excited about any pregnancy until we are AT LEAST 16 weeks. Even then, we are still hesitant. I think it's pretty neat that you guys are hopeful and excited. It's easy for everyone to say that it'll be okay, but somehow it really doesn't matter until it actually is, right? You guys are strong and He IS watching over you. But until things settle down, I agree, just go watch something to make you laugh. And the new season of THE OFFICE is starting on Thursday! And Chuck is starting next week, too. So, that's good. Take care you guys.
I am praying for you! Love you Lots
Amy, you're in my prayers. Hang tough. I've learned that times like this give us the opportunity to really come close to our Father in Heaven as we seek his will and align ours with it. Easier said than done, but that is where my growth and faith occur. Take care. The office cheers me up too!
I know you guys will get through this. Even if you miscarry again, there is a reason which unfortunately we don’t always understand or want. Always remember that there are several spirits that would love to be apart of your home even if they aren’t born into it. I can’t say I know how you are feeling but I can understand the frustrations you must be going through right now. My husband and I are going to the temple this Friday and we will put your name in. We will also pray that you will be comforted and strengthened at this hard time in your life.
i am sorry amy. i can't tell you i know what you are going through with the baby situation but i am sure it makes you all the more grateful for your precious michael. i can relate to the job search though...john got laid off and we are currently looking as well. tough times.
Amy i know things will work out for the best! try not to stress to much over it just know u have family and friends that will be by u the hole way!
Hey Amy. Hope it comes through for you. I understand the job search thing. Michael is looking too.
Hey Amy, long time no see :). Don't worry about it, I took a preggo test a day late just as a joke for Ryan and it turned out positive and everything was ok. And I don't have a easier pregancies or deliveries, you'll be fine. I'm really excited for you! We'll keep you in our prayers.
That is so hard. Hopefully things will turn out for the better. You are such a great mom and friend. I know that there is a little spirit up in heaven just waiting to see you again, maybe they are just a little busy. Hang in there and enjoy Michael, he is such sweet little boy. Claire misses hanging out with him and always loves looking at pictures on your blog.
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